So yesterday, as I was doing what I do everyday, I got a phone call from one of my most favorite people in the world, my aunt Becky. We talked about this and that, just chatting mostly, when she says she got her CT scan results back on Monday, (in January, she’d been diagnosed with colon cancer that had grown to her liver and lungs. I’ve been hopeful that things were going to go well and she would have a miraculous cancer survivor story to tell). So she proceeds to tell me that things really weren’t good. The cancer in her liver has doubled in size and putting pressure on her lungs so that she is short of breath, and there is also a new tumor in her back. She told me she was still hopeful. We just cried together. We talked for a little longer before we hung up. For the rest of the day I just felt so sad and sometimes angry. This demon called cancer is trying to claim the life of another person that I love, and it makes me crazy!


Anyway, so this morning I was trying to just get back to routine and all that. Annie & Michael needed baths so I bathed them and got them ready for the day. I got Annie dressed and told her she had to stay in the clothes I put on her instead of changing 5 times into various outfits. That made her upset and she was really having a hard time.

I took her downstairs to rock her and just try to settle her down. As I was rocking her, Collin climbed up on my lap as well and wanted me to rock him. I’m holding two of my precious children and my emotional flood gates just opened up and I quietly began to sob.

After a while, Collin looked up at me and saw that I was crying. He put his arms around me and said “Come here.” I hugged him and while I was holding him he whispered to me that everything was going to be okay.

I explained to him that someone that I loved very much was really sick and I was afraid that she was going to die. “Who is dying?” he asked. “My aunt Becky,” I replied. “Mom, she’s going to go to heaven and then Jesus will come and she’ll be alive, ok?” I was so touched by the innocence and the truthfulness of his answer to my fears. I am so grateful for the wonderful blessing of eternal families, and for the tender faith of my beautiful 4 year old son.